Bread Without Permission

And I, my mother,

died without intent,

while I was searching for life.

I rushed

toward a light,

thinking it was a loaf of bread

at dawn that survived the bombing,

but it was a trap,

and the loaf of bread

was the edge of absence.

I waited for a breath of air

to pass over me without permission.

I ran after life

like a child forgotten by time in the alley.

First came the bullets

I asked them, “Is this life?”

They answered me… with silence.

I stumbled over the name of my neighbor

who was bombed two days ago,

and fell.

When I called for you in the crowd,

my voice choked on sorrows.

I did not die a hero as the news says

I just died… because I wanted to live.